A smile
A glance
And a few
Blushing cheeks
Intimidated by
You
Too scared to talk
So the smiles
Stopped
Time passed
And you were
Gone so much
Week after week
Months passed
Finally
Out of my mind
I sent you a
Hi
And waited in
Suspense
After about
A day
I fell for you
And to my
Surprise
You caught me
You lowered me
Slowly
Told me your
Story
I cried at first
Then realized it
Was for the best
Thankful to see
Your smile
And sit close
I may still
Wish you were
Mine
But I'm ever so
Glad you're my
Valentine ..
Little whispers
That's all it takes
A thought
A whisper
And the damage is done
Not one regret
Not one wish for change
Fault is in the eyes
Of him
I wish that
He was
A mere ghost
A mist
In the air
Of
Life
Time is of
The essence
Turning light
Into dark
No time
Wasted
No remorse
He is gone
And I am
Nothing.
To sit back and just watch
Is terrible
To actually tell you
Whats on my mind, what I see,
Would kill you
There is just so much that you should know
Yet so much that I am not at liberty to discuss
Tell me why you run to me
Why you feel the need to make my life a living hell
Tell me the purpose of you existing in my life
Why am I your method of disaster?
I am nothing in your heart
Though you always say otherwise
You tell me im of importance
When I see the truth in your eyes
I am not,
You could care less
She is your passion
She is your life
The one that you need to keep your fire burning
I, only a temptress, have n
Petrified stares
Cut through me like glass
Penetrating my skin
Leaving uneven edges
Puncturing my veins
Fracturing my bones
Reaching its target in the end
Becoming dizzy
Feeling faint
Finally realizing the damage done
The impact made
Blood laced with gasoline
Dripping slowly
Almost to slowly to seem real
Drip
By agonizing
Drip
It seeps out
Falling in time
With the beat of my heart
rumors
start out
as something
small
but become
something
massive.
the words
first meant to joke
are now hurting
innocent
bi-standards.
rumors are just
the gossip of
others
made to make them
feel secure.
they have no
real meaning
if taken as tho
they do
it will ruin
your life
so let
the rumors be
lost
and live your life
in a world of
reality.
What if?
If I played you a song, would you be there to listen?
If I took you in when you got locked out, would you do the same for me?
If I called you to make sure you were ok, would you pick up the phone?
If I drove you to the hospital when you were sick, would you tell me the room number?
If I cooked you a meal when you needed food, would you eat it?
If I paid for a movie ticket, would you sit next to me?
If I gave you a hug when you were sad, would I get one back?
If I gave you my shoulder to cry on, would you lend me yours?
If I held out my hand for you to hold, would you meet it with yours?
If I poured out my heart and soul, wo
Cast you off
For when I wake
I see you there
Standing next to me
But when I
Blink then gone
Again are you
I close my
Eyes to try
And see you again
But you're gone
For good
There's no point
No point in trying
To see you
To look for you
You left
Me here
To figure it out
For myself
That you are
NOTHING
Just a dream
That I want
But can never have
And now I wish
That I had never
Dreamt of you
Never seen
Your face
Or talked to you
Wish you
Never entered
My life
Entered my
Mind, my heart,
My soul
It is best
To leave you
To cut you out
To never meet
With you again
This is my wish
My final go
A smile
A glance
And a few
Blushing cheeks
Intimidated by
You
Too scared to talk
So the smiles
Stopped
Time passed
And you were
Gone so much
Week after week
Months passed
Finally
Out of my mind
I sent you a
Hi
And waited in
Suspense
After about
A day
I fell for you
And to my
Surprise
You caught me
You lowered me
Slowly
Told me your
Story
I cried at first
Then realized it
Was for the best
Thankful to see
Your smile
And sit close
I may still
Wish you were
Mine
But I'm ever so
Glad you're my
Valentine ..
Little whispers
That's all it takes
A thought
A whisper
And the damage is done
Not one regret
Not one wish for change
Fault is in the eyes
Of him
I wish that
He was
A mere ghost
A mist
In the air
Of
Life
Time is of
The essence
Turning light
Into dark
No time
Wasted
No remorse
He is gone
And I am
Nothing.
To sit back and just watch
Is terrible
To actually tell you
Whats on my mind, what I see,
Would kill you
There is just so much that you should know
Yet so much that I am not at liberty to discuss
Tell me why you run to me
Why you feel the need to make my life a living hell
Tell me the purpose of you existing in my life
Why am I your method of disaster?
I am nothing in your heart
Though you always say otherwise
You tell me im of importance
When I see the truth in your eyes
I am not,
You could care less
She is your passion
She is your life
The one that you need to keep your fire burning
I, only a temptress, have n
Petrified stares
Cut through me like glass
Penetrating my skin
Leaving uneven edges
Puncturing my veins
Fracturing my bones
Reaching its target in the end
Becoming dizzy
Feeling faint
Finally realizing the damage done
The impact made
Blood laced with gasoline
Dripping slowly
Almost to slowly to seem real
Drip
By agonizing
Drip
It seeps out
Falling in time
With the beat of my heart
rumors
start out
as something
small
but become
something
massive.
the words
first meant to joke
are now hurting
innocent
bi-standards.
rumors are just
the gossip of
others
made to make them
feel secure.
they have no
real meaning
if taken as tho
they do
it will ruin
your life
so let
the rumors be
lost
and live your life
in a world of
reality.
What if?
If I played you a song, would you be there to listen?
If I took you in when you got locked out, would you do the same for me?
If I called you to make sure you were ok, would you pick up the phone?
If I drove you to the hospital when you were sick, would you tell me the room number?
If I cooked you a meal when you needed food, would you eat it?
If I paid for a movie ticket, would you sit next to me?
If I gave you a hug when you were sad, would I get one back?
If I gave you my shoulder to cry on, would you lend me yours?
If I held out my hand for you to hold, would you meet it with yours?
If I poured out my heart and soul, wo
Cast you off
For when I wake
I see you there
Standing next to me
But when I
Blink then gone
Again are you
I close my
Eyes to try
And see you again
But you're gone
For good
There's no point
No point in trying
To see you
To look for you
You left
Me here
To figure it out
For myself
That you are
NOTHING
Just a dream
That I want
But can never have
And now I wish
That I had never
Dreamt of you
Never seen
Your face
Or talked to you
Wish you
Never entered
My life
Entered my
Mind, my heart,
My soul
It is best
To leave you
To cut you out
To never meet
With you again
This is my wish
My final go
i am a free spirit and i love to take life as it comes, no need to plan, just go with the flow, i tend to fall to easily, and i speak my mind. i love nature and life. i am me and that's all i will ever be....
Favourite genre of music: i like it all Favourite photographer: either ola or kk Favourite style of art: abstract MP3 player of choice: ipod Favourite cartoon character: elmo
Favourite Visual Artist
picasso
Favourite Movies
its a wonderful life and anything tim burton
Favourite TV Shows
kiddie cartoons :)
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
changes constantly
Favourite Books
i like them all
Favourite Writers
anne rice, poe, rowling,----the list goes on and on
okay i am really bad at keeping a journal that is current to my life. and i mean i guess that does have some perks to it but in the long run probably not. okay so i just wanted to write and say that losing your best friend sucks. like i mean okay so all thats happening is he is moving away for a little over a year and it is to a location that is out pf the us. he says that i am over reacting and i probably am but either way its a big deal and its gonna hurt. knowing that he is leaving and knowing that w still have time together kinda makes it harder and i mean like i feel as though we are growing apart and i dont want that to happen. i am so
okay i am really bad at keeping a journal that is current to my life. and i mean i guess that does have some perks to it but in the long run probably not. okay so i just wanted to write and say that losing your best friend sucks. like i mean okay so all thats happening is he is moving away for a little over a year and it is to a location that is out pf the us. he says that i am over reacting and i probably am but either way its a big deal and its gonna hurt. knowing that he is leaving and knowing that w still have time together kinda makes it harder and i mean like i feel as though we are growing apart and i dont want that to happen. i am so
so there have been some changes that i have had to face as i have grown up. and i am starting to really hate them. as i progeress in school i have less time for my arts adn being me is taking longer than i want it to. i am hoping to start committing to myself that i will do a journal a day and keep in touch with my life as opposed to letting it just slip through the cracks. for the positive i have had a few more contract offers and a few acting offers as well.... but for now those are just back burner things in my life. well idk thats alli can think of now, so imma continue on to the other events in my somewhat boring saturday.... good day :)